Had cross country today. Felt so proud of myself cause I managed to run and not stopping, finishing the route (although the taf ppl had diff route from the rest). Eddie came in 1st for the taf guys category, cause someone came in 1st for lower sec category, doing our class proud. After the run, supposed to go back to school for Bio revision with Mrs. Ling. And I was hesitating whether to go or not to so tt I can go celebrate Shayne's birthday. God helped me make my decision, not to go for revision cause Mrs. Ling couldn't make it. Jiamin, bev, pc, Bx and I then proceeded to Varinice to eat.

Because of your presence there, when I talked, asked questions and laughed, I was ignored. I thought it will be betta today but I was wrong, it was just all my wishful part .

Bused to TM with Bev. Was early so went to the washroom to clean up and walked around. Finally they came and we went to some community center to celebrate Shayne's and another girl's birthday. We called Cannadian pizza. It was fun!

we decided to watch "Secret" but all tickets were sold out for the 3.30pm. Joanne asked to watch the 5.30pm but it will be too late for me. So I and Rachel joined the rest to watched "Alone" coz Joanne had phobia watching horror movie. The show was damn scary lahx. Screamed the whole way and now my throat's sore.

After coming out of the cinema, Joycelyn confronted me for leaving Joanne behind. I then realised how bad I was. As a friend, I shouldn't have left her alone while all the 10 of us went to watch "Alone". I will feel sad when I'm left alone and I know well how this feeling is like but now I did it to Joanne. I feel like i'm the worst person in the world and not worthy for others to be friends with.

When I called you asking whether you want to join us, the way u answered hurt me. Y must this person always be added into the conversation I have with you? I know you are playing but can u spare a thought for me. I am as equally important as a friend right?

Whenever I see you, I smile as happy as I can so that you wont be suspicious of anything. I don't want our friendship to end just like that.